Time shows 546 am . Im wide awake at 5 am just now . azan baru jeni berkumandang . this is the second time I heard a call from Allah in Mitec :') and yes I know He did that for a reason . He wake me up early in the morning because He wants me to do something good for myself . TEPUK DADA TANYA SELERA I knew what the answer too :')) diri sendiri je yang tahu macamana nak tangani setiap masalah . diri sendiri saje yang tahu apa yang terbaik untuk dirinya sendiri . Get it what Im trying to say ?oopsss , Assalamualaikum...
The first thing I buat tadi gapai handphone and .......... Is this the punishment for me ? If yes , dengan hati terbuka I accept it ! aku tahu bukan sini tempatnya , bukan sekarang waktu nya tapi hati dah meronta ronta kesakitan . dalam kehidupan MEMANG akan ada pahit masam manis kehidupan . itu lumrah hidup yang kita kena laksanakan . The second thing I have done is whining to Allah . sekejap . tiba tiba aku teringat the moment aku dengan dia otw balik ke pasir gudang from lunch kat kampung melayu . Ya Allah rindunya . sangat rindu . manusia tak boleh mengubah apa apa . Dia sahaja yang mampu mengubah segalanya . natijahnya , kita mengadu sahaja dengan Sang Pencipta .
I am about to have a shower . to have mandi wajib . aku nak jumpa dengan Allah ! Ya Allah aku merinduimu . teramat merinduimu . aku nak mengadu dengan dia . and know the tears forcing me out . I keep doa doa doa and doa . I woke up tadi and sedekahkan al fatihah dekat Mak Abah , Maktok Tokbah , arwah Atok Melah Atok Mat and last but not least Aaf . rindu sangat . rindu . Im not gonna detailing . just let myself knew about this matter . Tomorrow is the brand new day . don't let the small little thing ruins your day Farah Farida . revive ! tomorrow I got Communication English 2 class , Skills Management and Mandarin 2 . like my roommate says , we will receive a project in english . I have a deal . I want me and you coorporate in a group . Ya Allah . I cant control my feeling .
Tears go down . It's raining outside . Ya Allah terima kasih kau kurniakan rezeki ini Ya Allah . Allah mendengar keluhanku :')) Im on period actually . Emotional is not sustain . Allah tempat mengadu tapi aku perlukan waktu yang mujarab dan bertepatan . Laptop basah dengan air hujan original daripada aku . why so sad ni dear ? ye yess I know you're missing him but ingat pantang larang dalam islam jugak . jangan jadikan sampai ke kemaksiatan , zina . okay . *take 2 mins and pray*
--after 2 mins a go and I fall asleep .
dah lepas nangis konpemnya tidoq and getting late for classes !! lpastu dah otw dapat wasep class cancel . cipeklok betei . and here I am again >.<
Teringat pesanan dia yang dulu , Kalau rindu , doa , mention nama dia dalam doa . Dear boyfriend , I am really missing you :''( you know what , this feeling is damn killing me . I super hate this feeling . Sayang rindu awwak :'(( Im better stop typing before cloud become cloudy again and rain become rainy . Assalamualaikum...
#StickyNote.com -nak fangsen apa la siaa class takde sampai pukul 2 . ni elak class kol 2 pun tkde ni haa . settle up my assignment aa . this morning je 2 lagu dia kasi kat aku roll on kat radio . pretty missing you Aaf tsk . here's a word before I stop my typing Put Allah first in whatever event , agenda , plan you'll be done . sebab dia sebaik baik perancang . HE knows what's the best for His slave . so keep think positive in whatever problem you're involve okay . *Mirror:JustinTimberlake ILOVEYOU :***
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