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Assalamualaikum Mohd Amirul Afiq :) Good Morning :) hmm how I wish I get this morning wish from you like before and I smile like a stupid girl yang baru dapat kereta kenari . then I make cyra jealous by asking 'Cyraaaa awak ada dapat morning wish tak ?' 'Cyraaaa awak ada dapat goodnight wish tak' and she'll said hmmmm takde pun . bestnye farahhhh . kenapa lah Dian tak macam Afiq ? jealous nyaaaa . and yes I beruntung dapat Afiq . he treats me well even in rough way sometimes . well farah macho ken . pedehal pun tacing natang ni . am I said to you before , your goodnight wish makes me smile in the middle of the night . I do wait for your goodnight wish every night . with your greet I akan cakap dalam hati 'oh Afiq masih ingat kat aku lagi even dia busy'  Good morning sayang :*



         Yes . I pun perasan pasal benda yang tgh terjadi kat kita . takkan kita nak terputus ditengah jalan ? takkan kita taknak overcome ? takkan nak jadi kan reason kita __ sebab farah tak bgtau awal siapa dok wasep dia and she told me late ! takkanlah ? lets overcome it sayang . you know what , dalam kepala I ni dok play lagu pemende tu entah yang indon tu Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi jangan pernah meniggalkan aku sendiri aku tak bisa aku tak sanggup biar kau pergi Fuarkkk the what ? hmmmm sayang.......:(




           Kalau ada tester untuk uji tahap kerinduan I ni , you'll be the winner tau . I miss you more than you know . starting dari yang awak balik kota kames tuari lepastu okay sekejap lepastu gaduh till now . you said do hug the bear when I'm missing you . try ask the girls bila je farah tak dengan bear ni ? time farah makan , solat , gi toilet and going out . I always with the bear hugging tightly . I miss you :( You reminds me too kalau rindu mention nama seseorang dalam doa . I miss my late grandparents and I pray for them . I mention you in my doa too . Kenapa I nangis ni ! bodo aa !! you said too , if/when people starts to talk rubbish bout us just ignore them kan ? it happens to me yesterday :(( they came to my rooms then compare their boyfriends with mine . I proof them that you're the nicer guy ever , the sweetest guy , the romantic one with told them bout you and me and of course lah Farah menang kan ! :)) it makes me more missing you when told them about the old us :( Afiq , I miss you :"(

            Look who's with me when Im blogging too . I imagine that the bear is You afiq .

             Lately ni kita rarely contact kan ? I wanna know what are you doing . I stalk you . em yesterday I tak tersengaja scroll scroll ig cheton and awak ada post gambar awak gi wedding kan . you wore the shoes.... Ya Allah Afiq , I senyum sensorang tgk gambar tu and stares at you for little while :D how I wish I can meet I can see you right now :/ Dear Afiq , its really hurt me when you said harshly masa kat cafe tuari . its really deeeeeeep you know . sampai nya hati awak cakap kat I camtu ? cuba awak refleksi diri awak balik hmmm . thats why I tunduk je masa awak cakap cemtu kat I . sebab tu I ignore you bila awak tanya kat I apa apa . its really hurt me . it's very touch me when you said you have family . your family will always loves you . they will stay with you forever . ye I admit it too . tapi the way awak cakap tu macam I tak wujud depan awak . awak cakap you'll not stay here till the end of study week means masa final baru awak datang , habiskan final zoom teros balik Kota lagi . then till next year ke kita nak macamni ? :((((((( I know it's a test . so I just keeeeeeep prays .

                 Afiq , Im not blaming you for all have done tau . kita dedua ni manusia biasa . ada khilafnya . kita bukannya maksum tak punya dosa . in sudden tuppp dalam kepala I teringat that moment I mintak you kiss kat susur tu..... rindunyaaa :'( I pun bersalah dalam benda ni . I mengaku . sebab I tak bagitahu you awal . I admit it . wasep I pun tengah problem so jangan risau k . entah orang gila mana tu takkan punya cari I . you ingat tak apa yang I wasep you dedulu ? I want you to be the last man I love . kalau lah , kalau kita terputus tengah jalan I redha . I kena redha dengan takdir Tuhan . kita disatukan mungkin untuk sementara . jangan lupa juga untuk buat solat taubat ye sayang :') you ajar I untuk tak call . Jangan selalu jumpa . cara awak tu sememangnya betul so kita boleh hindar zina . but fyi too , kita wasep tu pun zina jugak . dosa jugak . others cakap , ehhhh peliknye korang . kenapa tak pernah call ? bestu cemana nak interact ? I cakap lah sejujurnya dosa call cakap laki pompuan bukan mahram tanpa sebab . then they will impress you . bagus nyaaa Afiq . yess ! Afiq I memang bagus ! that's why Farah sayang dia lebih .

                Tapi I rasa I dah kehilangan Afiq I yang dulu . hmmm padan muka kat Farah siapa suruh cari gaduh ? kenapa pun lah gi delete numb saitonn tu . actually I tertanya tanya jugak , kenapa lah , kenapa nak sabotage us ?? I promise from now , even kita gaduh kepe I'll let you know where I want to go k . --kenapa cakap dekat I camtu semalam ? 'no need to ask my permission' you memang nak lepaskan I sesangat ke afiq ?..... fyi I tak pergi pun semalam celebrate birthday akypp bila awak macamtu ;) you marah I towards small things . eh bukan small major things lah bout my aurat and it really impressed me Afiq . you take care of me :'D I do mengeluh senanye Hishh kat rumah kena tegur dengan mak abah , kat U kena tegur dengan dak ni pulak -_- nampak tak Allah kirimkan you untuk jaga I ? Alhamdulillah thank you Allah ! I sayangkan you Mohd Amirul Afiq . I sayangkan you kerana Allah . biarlah kita dipertemukan sebab Allah dan dipisahkan sebab Allah jugak k .

              You showed me you put our pictures as your background phone etc kan . awak cakap Farah manada nak buat cemni . sayang , cuma awak je yang tak tahu senanye . dalam phone I ada 1 folder semua gambar kita siap description as blog ! that's why phone I jem sebab berat hehe . my dp at one of my social network I put our picture together as dp . ni haa kat netbook I pun I letak gambar kita . password ? bout us too . semua yang I buat pun semua nya berkaitan dengan kita sebenarnya . thats why I nak gambar kat steamboat tuuuu . nak save letak kat folder sini . right now how I wish we can spend times together . sit in one place talk bout us , no one disturb us , no gadget in us , talk bout stupid things hmmm . that moment ,  that moment bila gi class tenenen kita terpakai baju color sama ! hahahahahaha what laaah . I just love the way you are . Afiq , kalau sebab I you jadi macamni I do really really really really really really really really really really really really really really sorry :< please jangan salahkan orang yang tak bersalah dalam hal kita k . jangan memarah dekat people around me w/o reasons k . diorang tak bersalah , Farah Farida yang bersalah . you buat semua ni with reasons and I totally accept it . sebab I tahu mesti ada hikmah disebalik kejadian . Afiq , don't you miss me ? don't you love me ? the songs you gave it to me I save it in 1 folder so bila I rindu , masa kita tengah gaduh , I akan ingat benda benda yang sweet saje not the sour one .

           Ye harapan I terlalu tinggi nak jadikan you my last person I love . tapi kalau dah takdir you bukan orangnya I find it when I'm in the next phase which is , alam pekerjaan . kita masih baru masih mentah dalah benda camni . tapi kalau kita pelan pelan inshaAllah okay kot . we keeps fighting kan . dalam 1 bulan mestiiii gaduh . tapi I accept segala kecelakaan . I jadikan tu 1 pengajaran untuk I so I won't do it again . everybody makes mistakes kan Afiq ? I rindu that 3 words from you goodnight // sayang // I love you :''''''(( and I rasa sampai sini je kot I'll type . I love you dear afiq . Assalamualaikum . kalau you still stick with your decision I accept it even I tak accept it .